Thursday, 27 September 2012

TODAY IS SUCH A GREAT DAY :D

Mind you, I dont normally say this xD

Seriously. I was so worried about presentation which was supposed to be presented in the afternoon after lunch PLUS we had to create a test based on a movie and answer them in class. Like a test. So. I was so nervous cz.. im not the public speaking type -.- yeah. soooo. i went researching how to overcome my nervousness. and then! i just realised it's confidence's business. And today, just now to be exact, I DID IT! :D as in, not so good but still good. haha. i just talked to the class like how i talk to my friends :P btw, there's only 5 of us including me and teacher in the class actually HAHAHA. but still nervous one okayyy. Erm yes film studies class. Always making me feel so miserable -__- And the test, it was nothing to talk about really. Just that i answered the wrong question (to the class). DAMN MALU HAHAHA. i was day dreaming :B
So that sums everything up :D I've done well in my presentation ABOUT THE AVENGERS HOHOHOHOH which i thought i wouldn't, answered that test cincai-ly, and! FOUND A CHINESE MOVIE MY TEACHER KEPT IN HER DRAWER for us to analyse xD Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon. OHHHHH 熟悉的感觉 :')))) CHOW YUN FAT AND MICHELLE YEOH MAN. main language for that disk is English but CHANGED IT TO MANDARIN.
hahahahahaha. so yeah. watched that for 40 minutes (YAYYY) and tada! class ended <3 that's the best thing ever.

Actually. That was the last lesson. What really made my day is Photography class!!!! :')
We went into the dark room to develop full-sized photographs. IT WAS SO GOOD. let me tell you how the thing is!!! So, today was the sec time my group (we parted in groups cz the dark room only have 5 places) go into the dark room. Actually today we have six ppl (including me) in the dark room so I FORGOT HOW WE SQUEEZED INTO THE DARK ROOM LAST WEEK :S urgh freaky.
So so so. We had six ppl, and ONLY I REALISED, we had one isolated room which looked like a store room that contains the photo enlarger!


so sir asked me to use that "executive suite" hahaha. It's so nice and comfortable there! I had my "own" space xD and then the machine is easier to use cz it's right-handed. Get what i mean? so yeah. Then when we developed using test strips to test how many seconds we need to expose the negatives onto the photopaper. I've used one test strip to see the outcome and then to the full-sized paper. The first photograph I developed was so nice! Mygod Im so touched and feel so satisfied haha. And when it comes to the second photograph using test strips, I got some problem with that light thingy. It's too bright so it made my photograph looked BLACK. like literally -.- haha. Then sir corrected the light to dimmer and TADA. When I let sir check (he asks us to show him EVERY photograph we developed) and he said WHOA. YOU CAN GET AN A ALREADY. and congratulated me. I was like :') so proud of myself. haha. You know, it's so hard to fit in in this kind of country and stuff. So it's a motivation for me, that I could really be good at something Im interested in. Just like my previous post about the Law test thingy.

Btw, I was the slowest one to be honest -.- IDK WHY. A few of them developed three photographs already but I've only done two. They were so quick! Maybe cz they've already learned this during their GCSE year. And you know, kids. Cin cin cai cai then finish and ciao.
Btw, I just realised sir is like a granpa. Like, those cute old grumpy granpa but are really nice to their families?

LIKE THIS. 8D

I asked my friend when sir was outside:
Me: Haha, Sir is like a granpa.
She: Ugh, more like a fking grumpy granpa -.-
I LAUGHED.

I wonder what it's like to have a granpa. I only have two Granmas. Both are grumpy. But cute :B heeheehee.

Ok. gotta stop before i continue with my "essay". Sorry for flooding this with words. I just couldnt be more creative. hee. BYE!

p.s: FINALLY GOT MY IPAD YESTERDAY HOHOHOHO.

Sunday, 23 September 2012

IM SUPPOSED TO BE DOING MY HOMEWORK.

...just that i think i should revive my blog. since there's a shoutout from miss wonglisien asking me to post :P

Initially i wanted to just type:
Hello I've blogged yoohoo. Bye <3
...  but you know. when you get your hands on the keyboard, you should just let your thoughts flow.

So here goes the rants.

A LVLS ARE SO MUCH HARDER THAN I THOUGHT :((

It's like. SO MUCH HOMEWORK. not to compared with SPM okay. I know SPM is a loooooot harder. just that i seriously didnt see it coming. now it's like going back to form four. loads of homework everyday. Some of them which i dreaded to do. :( especially film studies. I just realised that i didnt really favour this subject. Compared to law (the most homework i've got -.-), i really dont mind studying it from fresh. Maybe im bored with this subject. Since i've been doing this last year. And thankfully, I've got an A* for Film Studies :) Come to think of it, I should've chosen English Lit. Ahhhh decisions again. I hate making decisions. This is my worst weakness. Damn.

AND LAW! I JUST GOT PRAISED BY TEACHER HEEHEE. that teacher rarely praises students one ah! Last week I got a choc from him too :B me and another guy for scoring good marks in a mini test :) Not really good actually -.- 36/64. And then last lesson, he marked my mock exam paper and was impressed with my essay :) and no one has ever answered like this before for the first time (first mock exam). Basically we had to revise before the lesson plus we already knew the question beforehand. SAB students should know this: E.g the Eng lit paper, where we knew soalan bocor then we memorised the sample answer like siao. Exactly the same concept. I just dont get it why they cant score in this paper -.- You just memorise the answer for the question which can be found in textbook. So yeah. SABians boleh! To be honest, Im really proud that im from Malaysia, from SAB the Sekolah Berprestasi Tinggi. I miss my friends :( Looking at the pictures make me feel nostalgic.

So yes, A lvls has started. I cant wait to end this ITS JUST THE BEGINNING. Im doing psycho, law, photography and film studies. Currently, im highly interested in Law and Photography. Only. Psychology is so-so. But film studies. Haih. I should stop complaining. It's MY decision after all. It's not that bad really. I just didnt really like it. I think i might start regretting. Which is the least thing i wanna get myself into. Regrets. Thinking positively, I can drop this next year :D SO IT'S NOT TOO BAD HEEHEEHEE. I just made myself feel BETTER :B like really.. youknowme xD

Enough enough. Let's talk about um, uni :D I WANNA GO TO UNI SO BADLY. idk why. I JUST WANT FREEDOM. not really freedom, but. well you know what i mean. hee. At the moment, I think I wanna study Law and Business in Uni :) It's one whole subject btw. Dunno why, I just like it.

I just realised how time zoomed pass. Im gonna spend another Christmas here. Like, SO SOON. after that, exam. I reeeeally need to do well. At least a B an A. I wanna get into a good Uni like University of Birmingham and make my parents proud. Ok this is getting too far hahaha.

oh i miss my hobbies T_T i miss reading without caring about the time. i miss painting, which is a recent hobby i've found. i miss taking photographs based on my mood. now, most of my time is occupied with HOMEWORK HOMEWORK AND HOMEWORK. and coursework (mostly film studies. i just dont have the creativity and stuff).

BYTHEWAY, i've thought of my Xmas present hahahaa:

  1. Bicycle (idk why, but it's nice to have a bike to cycle around the neighbourhood :B gam fei hahaha)
  2. Tripod (I guess i should buy this with my own money. Wont cost too much actually, just need to save at least a few £ every week ;) )
  3. Instant Camera (Average price £80 including the films. Still considering)
I forgot what else -.- hahahah. will update this list every now and then till Christmas xD

Okay. I think i should really stop here then go to bathe then watch drama (TODAY LAST EPISODE T___T which is one of the reasons that im feeling a lil' down today) and then HOMEWORK. I NEED TO FINISH THEM LAAAAAAA.

p.s I THINK IM GONNA HAVE P SOON grrrrrrrr. no good no good. stomache feel uncomfortable :( moody and all. HAIH. why am i a girl.
p.p.s im sorry i wrote an essay out of this post -.- I NEED PICTURES URGH but.. hee.

TILL THEN BYE.