Halfway through 2013.

Hey guys!

It's the last day of June. Cant believe that we're already in the middle of 2013.

How quick time passes. I wonder if it will slow down a little. Perhaps that's a wishful thinking.

it just struck me to go back to my new year resolution and check whether or not it is in progress. I dare say that many of them are quite workable, and i DO follow what i planned. LOOK AT NUMBER 10. i guess it's time to panic already. T__T 45 more days. SO SCARED. i really really need my grades. I hope i can be eligible to apply for the top universities in the UK. I mean, imagine if im still in Malaysia. In order to study in the universities in the UK, i need good grades in SPM and A levels. Better grades that you can possibly think of, and perhaps, i wouldnt have the opportunity to study here because i know that i wouldnt be able to get the grades if im studying in Malaysia. everything would be so different. And here, we could apply for student loan. I think that's another major thing, cos my parents wouldnt be able to afford the fees and expenses for my degree if i transfer from Malaysia to a university in the UK.

Im glad that im still keeping up with my new year resolution. Honestly i didnt neglect any of the resolutions; I hope i wont neglect any of them in the coming 6 months :B

I looked back the a blog I've created with my friends 4 years ago. It was pretty funny how i've matured over the past 4 years. IM GLAD I DID. haha. the things i wrote in the blog is so pointless AHAHAHA. i had goosebumps when i was reading the posts and watching a video we've created for the newspaper magazine. NO im not gonna tell you the link :P

I feel so sick. I'll tell you why in a minute.

Two days ago on Friday about 14 of us (the law students) and our law teachers (3 of them) went to this buffet restaurant Jimmy Spices and had dinner together. We went there by bus (TOOK US ONE WHOLE HOUR TO GET THERE) and the teachers went there by their cars (of course). it was pretty tiring and warm. The teachers only reached 15 minutes after we did, and we were sitting there (i was sitting with Mrs Westwood HAHAHA because all of my friends went to the other part of the table, leaving me and Amanjot to sit beside the teachers -.- ) awkwardly for a few minutes before we went to get our food. The teachers waited for ALL OF US to get the food, then only they went, because they said they had to look after our stuff. awwwww. they're really sweet. And then when we came back, they sat for another 5 minutes .___. ahahahaha. come to think of it, it's pretty funny! and when my friends were on their dessert, our teachers were only on their starters ahahaha. really funny. and when i asked mrs westwood to "get somemore food!" she went "alright, alright, i know you guys are trying to ditch us" hahahaha. aww our teachers are so cute. and i asked my law teacher whether it's his birthday the day before and he went " *frown* NO." i said we can treat him the dinner for his birthday but he said that's very nice, but i can treat him when i'm earning the same salary as him o__o that would take me ages. hahaha. and we sang him a birthday song, it was SO FUNNY.

we had a group picture after that, and the students and teachers went separate ways. the dinner was a little bit awkward (for me and amanjot only actually), but it's quite good actually. OH and i heard what the teachers were saying HAHAHA. i was eavesdropping ;) i heard they said how we're getting more mature and stuff :') but mainly they were talking about school stuff. haha.

Oh so i feel sick now, because of the dinner i guess. i think the food isnt for me, it made me have diarrhoea for 4-5 times yesterday and i still have mild stomache ache every now and then. and i feel like puking.

Oh yeah, on Friday we were doing this UCAS thingy, and i was asking the teacher about the reference thingy. She went "you're Ashleigh, aren't you?" O__O that's a bit scary and she went to ask my Psychology teacher (she's one of the tutors) about me. She said i'm a good student awwwww and im likely to get A* in my Psychology. Sigh. Please dont say that. I dont wanna disappoint you. But i'll try my best, i promise!

So that was kind of the last day of my AS year. Tmr, we're gonna start a new timetable, a fresh year! Not exactly fresh, but we're starting a new timetable and we're gonna be year 13 from tmr onwards. i hope it's gonna be good! i hope it's not a lot worse than i expect. i just wish that im in the same class with someone i know/close with, and have the same free period with some of them. No actually. I hope we're in the same class but not free period. Then i can do my hw during the free period. haha. And i saw some law handouts my teacher had prepared. they were on the cupboard in my law class. im actually pretty excited!! HEHEHE A2 LAW HERE I COME! A* I HOPE IM GETTING NEAR YOU AND CAN REACH YOU WITHIN A YEAR'S TIME! but i just hope that we dont have to do the debate.

Talking about period, IM GONNA HAVE MINE THIS WEEK. and it's prom this friday -.- pimples everywhere SIGH. but whatever.

oh yeah, my cousins came here from malaysia yesterday! it was so great to see them again :') they're like my brothers and sister. My closest cousins. because we grew up in the same town with them living just two streets away from my house. but they left yesterday :( to Cardiff. they might be coming back, but not sure.

im going to bathe now. bye! :)

So today we had this Convention. Which basically means that all the universities in the country came to this Aston University and had stands for us to ask any question.

We went there in the morning. I was in school early TO PAY FOR NEW YORK HEEHEEHEE. im really excited. I'm gonna be really honest. haha. i really hope everything will go smoothly. Dear passport, please dont let me down. Pretty please.

So yeah. I paid, which means that my place is reserved woohoo!

back to topic. So we gathered in the common room. Everyone was making noise IT WAS SO ANNOYING but to my surprise my law teacher (the head of 6th form) didnt get annoyed/angry. O__O then only i knew after we came back that it was his birthday today! no wonder he was in a really good mood the whole day today. haha. we could've wished him happy birthday tho :( I'LL DO IT HERE: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIR! YOU'RE SUCH A GREAT TEACHER! MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE!

Okay so yeah. we went to the Uni at about 10am. I sat beside my friend Nurjahan and it was pretty fun cz normally i'd be the odd one out and sit alone. We laughed at almost everything hahaha. It's quite funny. SHE is funny.

We reached there, and went to the Halls with lots of other university stands. But after a while, i lost my friends so i just be on my own and looked for universities that i want to/hope i can go to. I've only got a few prospectuses which i didnt even wanna take. they just shove them at me when they're talking about the course. MY FRIENDS ALL GOT NICE BAGS AND FREE ITEMS. i've only got books. haha. But that's fine actually.

Then we had lunch on the grass. haha. i bought a hotdog which is quite expensive and not THAT nice. oh well. cant complain much. my friends actually wanted to go out for lunch but i thought it'd take lots of walking so i'd rather stay and eat on the grass. haha.

Then we went home. it was quite fun actually. I did understand A LITTLE BIT more about the universities, but most of the information is on their websites so i already knew before this.

Oh and we got this 1GB memory stick from Northampton Uni! how cool!

That's all really :) I sat with my friend again on the way back. AND SHE HELPED ME PASS LEVEL 65 IN CANDY CRUSH. hahah. how awesome.

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!

My teacher allows me to go New York!

And my mom approved as well! I'd have to use my own money tho -.- for EVERYTHING. but im gonna ask my parents to sponsor me £100 no matter what. haha. But the rest- £400, i'd have to start working or saving my allowance to make sure that i have enough money by 1st March.

So this morning, i saw my teacher speaking to the business teacher (the organiser, i just realised) and he called me over saying "do you still want to go to New York?" i was like *grinning* and said YES. he said the teacher is gonna open up to the rest of the school on this Friday so i need to get my form from the teacher today and pay the deposit by Friday the latest so that there's a place for me. SO NICE OF THEM! and the business teacher was quite happy for us to go as well, well it's because she needs to make sure she's got enough students to cover the cost. Anyways I WAS SO HAPPY! it was the best day by far. My beginning of the week was crappy. Thank God something good happened. It's like, when you expect the least, something good will happen. Honestly, i was thinking i couldnt go. Oh and i told them about my passport, and my teacher was like "oh im quite close with" the home office people hahahaha. and Ms said she could give them a call about it. I DIDNT KNOW THAT THEY CAN ACTUALLY PHONE THEM O___O but anyways, i'll give my deposit in tmr, and TOUCH WOOD i cant go because of my passport, she'll sort me out. i really hope i can go tho! sigh. it's like once in a lifetime :(

Oh and the whole law department are going for a dinner on Friday! im gonna go i think, but my cousins are coming here on friday :( they're still gonna be here on Saturday. so i think i'll go. I'm gonna miss my law classmates so much :( and one law teacher. she's so nice! even though she doesnt teach my class, she still puts in the effort to teach me when i dont und something. and keeps finding different voluntary work for me. where to get teachers like this?

So yeah. that's basically it.

Last day of the AS year.

I would miss it, really.

Yesterday was our last day of being AS students. We're gonna have some workshops about different things ie Uni courses, UCAS, subjects etc. next whole week. And then the week after, we're gonna start new timetable. Our second A level year.

Im gonna miss AS year so so much. I've learned so many things this whole year. From studying the subjects i've chosen (where there was a 'plot twist') to making new friends and feeling more worthwhile in school (life, actually). It was definitely a school year worth remembering.

Im such an emotional person. Haha. But oh well, it's good to be emotional, isnt it :P

Thank God my law and psychology teachers are still gonna teach me next year. that's one of the things i'm most worried about. and new subject teachers. i think Mr Bonner (my current History teacher) will be teaching me, even if it's another History teacher i wouldnt mind cs apparently everyone says she's nice. I wonder how Geography would be. What if I dont like Geography? .___. i really dont know man. It's either Geography, Eng Lit or Business. Or Maths. NO NO. not maths. not Eng Lit :/ ugh can i just take History alone? i dont like i'll like Business too :( but if i take it i think im gonna have the exam one. i dont like coursework.-.- haha. Well, i'll see how it goes during the taster weeks (whole July) with my new timetable. currently i've put down History and Geog.

The pressure is gonna be extreme next year. Four subjects. 2 A-lvls, 2 AS's. And all exams are in June. 8 papers. HOW TO SURVIVE.

back to the main topic. im gonna miss everyone in my law class :( there's only one friend in my Psychology so yeah. haha. my law class is the best class i have! everyone is so cute and funny. haha. i hope we're gonna be in the same class next year. but sir said he's gonna mix us up ugh :( i hope i'll like my new law class too. I WONDER WHO WILL BE IN THE SAME CLASS WITH ME NEXT MONTH/YEAR!! :B

gosh im so cold and i needa pee.

Oh and ytd me, pav and selina stayed after school till 6.30 to help Mrs Curtis for the stuff next week. It was kinda fun! and we enjoyed ourselves as well xD and now im gonna help Ms to do the display board.

Cant talk much i really needa pee. So i'll take a shower as well. BYE PEOPLE!

WISH ME ALL THE BEST! for the new timetable haha. i hope i'll have the same freetime with my friends!

*edits

yeah i came back after i took my shower haha. because i forgot to mention how cruel my teacher is. hahahah. he was absent yesterday so he left some work for us to do. A 2-THOUSAND WORD ESSAY. hahaha. it's alright actually. but everyone was in the "im dead" mode. so we were moaning xD

oh and i brought something back from school to do. helping my teacher for the display board. it's kinda fun! at least i have something to work on since there's nothing to watch on Saturdays :B

It feels like a Friday T__T

Like, why is it not Friday man -.-

the weather is pretty warm today! it was warm yesterday too, but it felt so stuffy and sticky ytd. ugh. today was much better. Cz it's quite windy at the same time.

So today we have this barrister from University of Law who gave us a talk on the career path in Law. it was really interesting, and i was so enthusiastic all session. I paid attention, like proper attention throughout it. and we had some case studies to help us practice our advocacy. i really liked it, and it was pretty funny throughout the whole practice. And two of my friends who weren't really interested in law were interested as well, one of them feel like doing law next year and another feels like doing a law degree. Awww. LAW ALL THE WAY!

And then after that Mrs Westwood came to me and asked me if Im okay and whether i found it interesting. I did really. and i think she could see it so she asked me. haha. nice :B it was really good!

And on one of the Fridays these few weeks both our Law classes are going to have dinner together in Sutton Coldfield. awww. Im gonna miss Mrs Flora. she's so nice. and we're gonna have both Mrs Westwood and Mr Iqbal next year. It's like this year basically. so it's good! :D

one of those days where everything goes wrong.

Courts.

Omg i've nearly forgotten about this.

We went to the Magistrates' Court on Tuesday and Crown Court+Police Station on Wednesday.

i dont feel like talking about it already :/ but it's very interesting! okay i'll write about it. So in the Mags court, it was quite interesting, we got into a few courtrooms and listened to a few cases. About 4 cases. The first one was without the defendant so i think we were not meant to be in there. haha. but erm one of the cases were doing exactly what we learnt last 6 months! it's so touching (inappropriate word but oh well) to see the things we learned being put into practice and seeing everything real-life makes it even more interesting.

Then the crown court hears more serious cases and we went to the rape case. it wasnt very decent and the case delayed for 30 mins bcs of technical problem -.- so we sat there for nothing. haha. the defendant's family went "they dont look 18 to me". we had to be 18 bcs it's a rape case. i was waiting for the barristers (WIGS!) to advocate but didnt have enough time T__T the crown court is actually very daunting and intimidating. i felt quite scared actually. because the D's family was right behind us and well, they werent very welcoming. hahaha.

the police station is quite interesting as well. nothing much, we looked at the cells and knew more about wht a police does. also something we've learned in our lessons.

i just cant stop thinking about the debate :( why do i get stressed out so easily? sigh.

:(

it's so difficult to get my hands on this blog.

I just kept getting distracted by other things and feel so lazy to blog.

But i know i have to blog, because i just have too many things to moan about today.

Sigh. You know that feeling when you feel everything goes wrong and you are just sad and moody for no apparent reason? That's what im feeling right now.

idk why. T___T

okay i probably know why and so let me start with the first one. WE'RE GONNA HAVE A DEBATE ON "duress should be extended as a defence to murder". Dont ask me what that's about, google it yourself. i dont even feel like talking about it but i have to because if not im gonna pass out anytime soon. So. this is our motion and apparently IM FOR THIS MOTION. which is really difficult because the whole world (all the law teachers) said this is the harder side. Like wth. My other law teacher went "well, good luck with that" T___T but the good thing is, i've done some prep work for this already in Mrs Flora's class and the worst part is we've got NO lesson to prepare (there's one actually, but Sir said we need to have our draft speech by that lesson) which means that we'd have to prepare ourselves during our free time. i see this coming tho. AND YOU KNOW IT'S ON THIS FRIDAY AND THE AUDIENCE/JUDGE WILL BE OUR PRINCIPAL AND SOME SOLICITORS -.- that day would be shitty, i believe so. but oh well. i dont mind doing it during my freetime because i have LOADS of freetime anyway but i need to make sure my teammates do it as well :/ i might start briefly preparing for them and just let them expand on the point and stuff. I was so touched when i ask them "shall we do this properly or just lose in it?" and they replied me "WE CAN DO IT. we'll do it properly and win!" awww. haha. and part of the reason is that thois whole thing will be counted in our application to university. so yeah. better be prepared. UGHHH I HAVE SO MUCH RESEARCH I NEED TO DO MAN. and im so scared because my friends were like "oh Ashleigh is here" and i was like NOOOO i cant talk LEAVE ME ALONE. im gonna have schizophrenia soon i think im talking and arguing to myself quite often. without punctuation. oh well.

So yeah. debate is causing me distress. Idk what i need to do. i actually wanna win as well. Cz that would really increase my confidence. But they have such strong team over there! they have about 3-4 people who are always willing to talk and speak up but i have quite a few quite people in my team :( and we've got the harder side. Sigh. i would feel so sad if we lose.

Okay so next thing: TRIP TO NEW YORK.
IT WOULD BE SO MUCH FUN. i wanna go to NY man. So. my school's business class is gonna have a trip to NY. and it's kinda organised by my Law teacher who will be teaching Business as well next year. The majority of my Law classmates do business so they're most probably going. And then when they were chatting about it i joined in and asked "SIR CAN I GO?" with that :B face. he told me quietly "you wanna go? ok, i'll sort you out" and i was like SO HAPPY. minus the money problem. But then when my friend asked him whether she can go, he kinda cant back up for us cz we dont do business :( and said if we signed up the teachers can consider. then after class i asked him again he said he'll think about it. T____T IT'S LIKE Y U GIVING MEH FALSE HOPES. NY man. i wanna go so badly. im trying to figure out how to tell my parents if im likely to go. i'd probaly tell them last minute after i've saved loads of money. It's £500 btw. So much money right i know :( but initially is £800+ and the school subsidised about £300. such a great opportunity! i really wanna go :( i should've made him promise me at the start hahaha. but oh well. i'll bug him till he lets me >:(

and my mom kept going on and on about my brother. and i was like what's the fuss about man -.- i feel so grumpy! it's cz my brother accidentally kept his phone on flight-mode so my mom couldnt contact him and she's like so worried and kept calling me and asking me all sorts of thing. sigh. i have so many other things to worry and fuss about and yet i still have to babysit my bro. what the hell man.

Actually that was it. Only three things to bring my mood down. oh yeah im having a headache now too. so four things. no actually, plus the weather. it's so shitty! rainy and cloudy all say it's like, HELLO SUMMER WHERE ARE YOU?! five things. doesnt matter about the quantity, it's the quality of the stressors. (this is where psychology comes in LOOL) so yeah.

let's talk about something happy. today we had a surprise party for Mrs Flora HAPPY BIRTHDAY MRS FLORA! we got her a cake and a mug with the class picture on it. She didnt really teach me but i did go to her class for quite a few lessons. she's one of the loveliest teachers i;ve ever met! my friend came late to school just to get her cake from the shop. and then after everything, she was telling Mrs Westwood (she got a surprise from her students as well because they were not going to school anymore after the exam today) how they were just doing their job and they teach us not to get any payback. and they said we probably realised and can see the effort they put into our studies although we know that they get paid. (sometimes i forget actually hahaha) so yeah. we do know what make them teachers different. We know that they get paid and are just doing their jobs. but it's the tiny extra things they do and the bond we have with each other. i mean, they can just let us copy everything in the textbook, end of. idk how to say it, but we knew that the things they do is a lot more than the things they should have done. i actually have to admit that i feel quite attached with my law teachers. haha. only law teachers :P honestly i've never feel this attached to a teacher before!

i'd cry when i leave school. definitely.

All these while I haven't come to realise my strengths and virtue.

Perhaps there's a very small part if me that makes me, me? Haha. I feel so contented suddenly o.o it's like I'm worth living in this world. Feeling so useful :'D

Oh yeah. I told my friends that I was once a fat ass and no one believes me AHAHA. That's very nice but it's funny how these 2 years have created a drastic change on me, on my life. Not only in the weight and look aspects but also.. oh you know. Pretty much everything.

I'm going on a trip to the Magistrates Court tmr and Police Station on Wednesday! Hoorah! At least I don't h e to stay in school :'D it's so torturous T___T it's like we don't have anything to do there. Well we do actually cz some teachers gave us work :(

I just wanna relax and chill like how we are SUPPOSED TO after exams. Now we're like having so many things going on in school o.o can't wait for holidays like seriously.

Oh well time to sleep :) goodnight!

it was proper chilling today!

in the morning we had this presentation about extended project which i might not do next year cz im gonna have 4 subjects but yeah a 500-worded essay. HOW COOL. it's alright actually, i'll see how it goes. and they told us (probably directed to me) that we need to go back to our lessons EVEN IF we are not carrying on to A2. i was pretty worried actually.

Then i went to Ms Flora's class (YAY now i can go to her lesson till i have a new timetable hohoho) and did some research on the debate. I told ms C that my photography teacher (I'm supposed to have photography) let me go as long as she knows where my friend as I are going every lesson. How nice! But mrs C said ok, but she might get into trouble with Sir. I hope she didn't get annoyed tho. I mean, I don't wanna sit in a classroom doing nothing :/ at least I'm gonna do something with Ms Flora :D cz if not, I'm gonna only have photography and films studies on Thursday. I can actually skip school -.- but oh well.  

After lunch i tried to look for my Film Studies teacher cz you know, I didn't wanna get into trouble. But I waited 10 minutes and gave up. I'll just get into trouble I don't care. Haha. Time to be rebellious. But there's no point going anyway, cz I'm gonna be the only student there. Two of the students left school already and another girl was absent.

So I ended up hanging out with my sister's friends who are really funny. We chilled at the bench outside the portakabins under the bright bright sun. Like, proper chill. IT WAS SO RELAXING! It's been so so so long since I've relaxed like this. Charged my energy! :') but th sun was really bright I think I'm gonna get tanned. Haha.

It felt like a weekend today! Kept forgetting tmr's school xD hope it's not gonna be boring tmr.

Can't wait for the prom shopping on Saturday :3 hope it's gonna be fun.

FREEDOM!

I finally finished my AS exams. Today was my last paper- Psychology. it's alright, isnt as simple as i thought. compared to all the mock exams (real past paper in exam condition), this was more difficult. it was actually quite hard to me. idk how to explain but it was more complicated than i thought it would be. and we had 3 essay questions this paper -.- in the past mock exams, there's always been one or two. that's my problem. i tend to spend so much time on essay questions because idk how much i should really write to gain full marks.  i think my problem is, i can do quite well in mock exams but in real exam, i just... dunno, panic i guess? but oh well, i think i've done alright. what's done is done anyway! :D

Im gonna miss everything i've learned this year :( minus the stressed out part. I actually liked the revision sessions for both Law and Psychology 'cause i felt that's when my friendship with my friends grew. It's funny how we were like strangers and now we've always studied together and we're going shopping for prom this saturday YAY! Actually, i forgot how we knew each other o.o oh and my teachers are always nicer in revision sessions :P

like i said in many posts previously, it's been the best year ever (i've only been here for 2 years duh -.-)! not to mention that tmr is officially the second year im here in the UK. How fast time flies.

So yeah. Im just gonna chill all day today! i did actually. i went to town with my friends and shopped. I FINALLY BOUGHT MYSELF A PLAYSUIT! MY VERY FIRST PLAYSUIT!

it looks better than the picture but yeah. im thinking whether i should stick to my plain black dress or wear this to prom. but then im scared that i'll clash outfit with other people cz it's bought in a common shop :/ i think i'll stick to the black dress. hee.

Soooooo. im so happy i bought a playsuit :D i've always wanted a playsuit. AND IT'S ACTUALLY IN MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONNNN. wait i go find the list now.

THERE U GO. just realised it's been on my resolution list for two years, and i finally got to buy one. such a great accomplishment! i really DO feel happy. it's because i was so freaking fat in malaysia i dont even wanna look at playsuits. haha. not that im not fat now, but i can wear a blazer with it since the weather is chilly here unlike Msia :D the thing is, the playsuit is more formal. i actually liked those a bit casual ones. i hesitated and wanted to return it but nah, it's still nice :'D

oh yeah. so i've said im going shopping with my friends this Saturday, i'll shop for myself again! it feel so nice to be able to buy something you like. but i wont spend too much, i promise :) who knows i'd probably end up buying nothing when i get home. my heart aches when i spend money :( but then again, i should reward myself since exams are over! :P excuses.

btw, we're doing this debate in law since our exams are over. NOOOOOO. i HATE debates T___T talking in public freaks me out so much, let alone debating IN FRONT OF THE PRINCIPAL. do you have to do this to me T__T yeah so my teacher said we're gonna prepare for a debate whether "duress should be extended as a defence of murder" something like that. So we have to find all relevant parties to support our motion (we dont know whether we're for or against yet) like the Law Commission etc. Im so scared :( i cant talk in public man, i'll freak out and die. literally. but oh well. luckily i've had some "formal discussions" in lesson with Ms Jordan in Film Studies lessons before so i think they were some good practices. cant we just debate in class and not in public T__T this tiny part of me is regretting for choosing law now. I hope i can gain more confidence through all these. most importantly, to understand what im actually saying during the debate. oh god. Ms F said she gained more confidence through speaking in public. i hope it's the same for me. my teacher is going to divide us into two groups for proposition or opposition. OH LORD GIVE ME STRENGTH PLEASE. im planning to start researching on it beforehand so i know what it's about. my friends all did some prep work but i didnt cz i was allowed to revise for my exam ytd. oh well.

tmr they're gonna talk to us about UCAS aka applying to unis. idek when i'm applying cz im leaving the year after. Hope it's gonna be not boring (i dont expect fun anyway) tmr!

Oh yeah. ytd during assembly, the teacher said we should continue to go to our classes even if we are not continuing the subject next year. So i went to photography lesson today. THERE'S NO POINT. i went there and they were doing their work. You know what, they've already started A2 modul two weeks ago. so what's the point of me and my friends going when we are not doing it, plus we cant just jump in half way? :/ i really wanna join Ms Flora's law class :( cz at least im doing something. I dont wanna just go to school for nothing :( although it's nice to chill but you know.. :(( maybe i should ask the teacher whether im allowed to go to Ms Flora's lesson. cz she let me revised for my exam today anyway. Yeah im gonna do that! we must make a move! for a better future! AHAHA wth am i crapping.

actually you know what I SHOULD START WATCHING MY DRAMA SERIES NOW :'D TATA!