Fresh.

I feel so fresh. *breathes in heavily* haha. no, not that kind of fresh, but innerly. it's like i feel so.. renewed. no that's not the word. erm.. let me tell you the exact feeling. you know, this morning when i stepped my leg back onto the school's groud, i dont feel so burdened. burdened. hahaha. what a word. you know how i feel about my stupid school right -.- well, i somehow changed 8D as in, i dont feel so heavyhearted about going to school and meeting the freaky people in my school :) it's so weird, i know -.- no lah. it's just that.. this morning, we had this stupid (the school always has stupid things going on, which are undeniably stupid (forever) of course) which involved us six formers to lead the younger students WITHOUT telling us what we're gonna do. it's like we're gonna just bump into the sports hall and stand there and wait for something to happen -.- so yeah. my sister and some other people were sent back to the independent study room to, of course, do independent study work. (they expect us to ACTUALLY STUDY in front of the computer which doesnt allow access to whatever websites we wanted to go, but of course, we fiddle with our phones and pretend to study and THEY talk SO NOISILY with their friends they're practically shouting at each other until teacher comes to yell at US for making noise) so never mind that again. gosh, im drifting to far away. *wipes sweat*

erm the thing is... after i was sent back to the inde. study room (came out that we were NOT needed for the activity thing 8D) and i sat in another room with the teacher guiding us. basically what she did was sitting there doing her home work and YELL when someone made noise. it's funny somehow. erm and one of this VERY MAFAN schoolmate of mine came over and we (barely) chatted for a while. then, coincidentally, my Nepal friend was there too (after the previous friend left) and we talked about Maths and English with another Nepal (annoying) friend. it turned out that, hmm, maybe we can be friends as well? friends as in, someone you can discuss with about the worst teacher in school 8D what an idea. haha.

of course, aherm, no one can replace any one of YOU who are reading my blog right now :P i know you know what i mean. you know lah <3 *smacks heart and peace*

but what im trying to make a point is, i somehow kind of let my guard down and open up a liiiiiiitle and it turns out quite good.

to be honest, I tended to keep a distance with a few of them because of some reasons. Then I thought. I'm not a perfect person too. If they don't dislike me for my qualities, then why should I? Hmm. But there are always some of those people who dont deserve my friendliness. Behind the back friendliness I mean. Especially those who wont concentrate in class but always laugh whenever teacher teaches and show NO sign of respect at all. Fun.
Hmmm. I used to (i realised but didnt know it's until this extent) just stay my own way and do what i feel like doing in class and concentrate on my own in lessons and not talk to anyone. THUS, PEOPLE THINK IM SUCH A QUIET GIRL. QUIET. QUIET.

i mean, how can you put the word QUIET in me? hahaha. maybe i might be emo sometimes, but being SAMPAT is always my thing, really. i dont like to just- go to school, sit there alone, eat with MY SISTER, study alone, finish my work sitting in front of the computer and interacting with it like it's my new best friend, then GO HOME. how ridiculous -.- there goes my life. I AM SO NOT LIKE THAT. i like walking around class and gossip whatever gossips there are. (i mean in Msia. ahaha. not that the gossips here are my cup of tea anyway :P). and constantly saying HI to random people. i still havent reached THAT level of sampatness. heeeeh.

and you know what, i think KNOW im still in PHASE ONE. >.> pfft. hahaha. hmmm. so. what im thinking is, why not open up a little and see distantly what's going on in school (although everything seems stupid. but dont get me wrong, i do respect every single teacher and salute them for being capable of handling troops of monkeys in school. pity them *shakes head*. i really do. respect them, i mean. haha). oh yeah. see distantly, yes. after all, it's my one and only time to experience high school in the UK. not fun at all >.> but anyways, i dowanna regret after i left the school (*eyes light up by the thought alone!*) and yes, i cant wait for university or college or wherever it is 8D so yeah, i better make the most out of it?

that's basically it :) whoots. oh yea. i found out that GCSE DOES start in exactly a month's time, but im only starting to sit for the exam on the 28th or 29th, i forgot, but it's these two days. so yeah. EXTRA TWO WEEKS FOR ME! just saying. but really. heehee.

last but not least, i've found out something i wanna do sometime later. which is...

!!!

never thought of it before, honestly. hehehehehe. wait till my pants are old enough :D

and btw they dont call pants, pants here. zzz. so much for the americanisation or whatever they call it. movies as films etc etc.

oh and my birthday is in exactly (really exactly) a month's time! hahahaha. i didnt realise this until just now, when i searched for this comparison between Kobo ereader and Amazon Kindle. They're selling Kobo TOUCH(!) for only £79!!!!!! sheets, im so gonna get myself one! you know, i really like reading since idunnowhen. i was debating between these two ereaders actually. but since i can get a touch-able one cheaper, so why not? and it comes in different colours!

i LOVE the blue one! but it's out of stock in some shops so i'll figure out a way to get it. maybe the black will do if no more blue. THIS FOR MY BDAY PRESENT! but the thing is, my dad's bday is 2 days before mine -.- hahaha. how am i suppose to ask him for birthday present when his bday is there too?

opps gotta dash, mom's gonna !@#$% -______- one more last thing- i am feeling surprisingly lighthearted although im having P right now :D CHEERS TO ME! Another last thing. Hee. I found out that the word 'shit' is considered as a bad word -.- so next time when I wanna say 'shit!' when something goes wrong, I should replace it with 'FAECES!' Hahahaha. Really gonna dash.

bye.