i feel like hibernating.

like, getting out of reach in the cyber world. i just dont know why.

well scrap that.

erm, im home. in Birmingham, and im not happy about it.
i think i know why. because it doesnt feel very homey in here. with my sister usurping the damn room. and eating at my bed. we share bed, you see. and she's eating at my place in the bed. hmmm. i've been at my aunt's house with my cousins. and it was really fun. it's been a week, and i hated the fact that i always feel like school is gonna start damn soon when you're here at home after having fun for a week. i still have 4 more days of holidays excluding today. before i know it, i'll be in school already. dreaded that. once school starts, i'll have to concentrate extra harder in lessons because i have to do well in my GCSE. in fact, i started panicking since last month. idk why other people can take GCSE like it's only a minor exam. despite the fact that they are RESITTING it. god. go get a life if you dowanna study man. why bother coming to school? grrr. well, seeing the people is one of the main reason i dreaded school too.

ahhhhhh so depressing T_T actually i havent even done my homework yet. not that it's a lot but.. it still takes some time to actually get my hands on it. im having a cold since yesterday. ate medicine and feel soooo sleepy. or drowsy. whatever you call it. and that's probably the reason for getting so depressed -.-

ah anyways. i've seen my friends posting about career week in school. i've been wondering too. what career actually suits me. still lost, yes. i was wondering should i pick up and resit GCSE Science when i finished this year's GCSE. now that i dont study science subjects means im totally blocking my "science pathways", of you get what i mean.

tell you what, i kinda miss the feeling of having crush. hahaha. seriously. you know, when in SAB everyone seems to have crush respectively and being with my gang, we can talk and insult one another. IN HERE, the people are un-look-able. ah idk how to put it into sentences. not that im fatt hau-ing. if you understand what i mean.

ps. i really had had a great week. it felt so good being with my cousins who seem like my sisters. i laughed almost everyday there :) im really looking forward to the next holidays. in 7 weeks' time. which means 7 mondays. not a good thing. :( plus GCSE is coming.
pss. something terrible is gonna happen in Indonesia, Malaysia and Singapore. please pray for everyone. i dont have the courage to let history repeat itself.

it makes me see how scary the world can be.