Wish upon a star.

I always have tummy ache. Hate is such a big word but.. I hate my stomach. Ugh.

Im supposed to shower now, but decided to type something :D

I have a Psychology mock exam tmr and im not even revising. Goodness. Im lacking motivation man. I wonder if I'll do well in the mock. I used to have high marks because I cared so much that i revised real hard for mocks. And my sis was like, it's JUST a mock. with the -__- face. But recently i have too many things to think about i dont even have the time to get motivated and revise. Last couple of months, when i read the textbook, the things would go into my mind, eventually. But recently (again) the things dont really seem to stick in my brain. Im so scared. Suddenly feel so insecure.

BUT. my whole point of writing my blog is not saying how my brain becomes so rebellious. It's about how excited i am to learning a new subject!

I forgot whether ive told you this before, but erm. I'm gonna start History this Wednesday! :) Im supposed to start last Wednesday but I went to the trip. So. Last week my teacher told me that he wanted me to have a go in this summer exam for History. My first reaction was like O__O well before this (right after i took my results) he did tell me he wanted to let me take the new subjects right away. But he thought it's too late. And now he said why not just give it a go. Previously he asked me about my workload, and i said it's alright at the moment. I SHOULD'VE SAID it's rather heavy. Cz when he talked to me about taking History this month, he started off with "rmb when i asked you about your workload, you said it's alright", and now i'll have to take history cz he thinks that i'll get a good grade, although it might be a disappointing one. That means I'll have to sacrifice Elective (FITNESS T___T) to pick up History. He asked whether it's alright, i said, yeah it's okay, it's just electives. And he said oh, JUST electives, i'll tell Miss V (my fitness teacher) that. -_____________- pfft. hahaha.

I have mixed feeling about it actually. On one hand, it's really great that i have the chance to do it, and im really excited to learn History (dunno why). MY FRIENDS ARE EVEN MORE EXCITED hahaha. one of them was showing me her folder awww, and another will be there during the lesson :) On the other hand, what if i cant do it? Will I be able to cope? As in, what about my other subjects? the homework? I really need to get good grades in my other two subjects. I'm afraid that i might neglect the other subjects. And one more thing. What if i get bad grade in this History exam? Means i'll have to retake it next year. So.. what's the point of it?

But but but. I talked to my Psychology teacher during the trip ( i sat next to her lol) and she said, just give it a try for a few lessons, see how it goes and whether im able to catch up. I needa catch up on one whole unit it 2 months. That is 8+ lessons. Omg how am i gonna do this. So yeah. I'll see how it goes :) NEVERTHELESS IM SO EXCITED FOR WEDNESDAY! i hope i'll like it and am able to pick up quickly. Fingers crossed!

Oh and about my psychology trip, there were 4 lectures. 2 of them were really interesting :) and we got to meet Elizabeth Loftus! and learn about serial killers. Not bad not bad. The only thing is, THE JOURNEY WAS SO LONG. and i felt so sick on the way back.

You know what, at first when i started this post, my idea was to write "IM SO EXCITED TO LEARN HISTORY!" and end it. Dunno why passive things such as my dilemma popping up. AND. i really need to study for my mock tmr. Oh Lord help me :(