Pathetic.

Dont feel like sleeping early recently.

I just realised that I've got no life other than school. Tbh, I dont even know what I'm supposed to do with my life sometimes.  It's like, the only thing I can focus on is my studies.

I think I HAVE to focus on my studies. I've got no time to waste. Im turning 19 next year already.

I cant wait to leave school. I know I've been saying that I love school very much. It is still true. I still do love it. But it's just that, sometimes, you know that you've got to leave for good. I'm kind of tired of having so much to care about.

I think I'll enjoy next year more. I know I keep saying this but hopefully it's gonna be better. Firstly, I might only have to do 2 A2's next year. I think they're trying to make me pick up one more subject but that's a no from me. Im pretty determined. I dont want more burdens in me.

Too bad my friends, well most of them, are leaving this year. Not that im really really close with them, but they're the ones I hang out with most of the time.

Idk, I just wanna go to university now. I think im sick of what im doing now. My life is just about studies. Pathetic, isnt it? Ive always been thinking that am I doing this wrong? Maybe I should enjoy life a little more. But when I enjoy life, I'll flop in my exams. So I dont wanna risk that.

At the moment, , no matter how pathetic or boring it sounds, im gonna study my arse odmff and focus on my goal: get into a good university with good grades. Then only, I believe, I can truly enjoy myself. I wanna make sure that I am treasuring those moments where I can still make a change.