Confidence.

I've wanted to talk about this since ages ago. But didnt have the opportunity. Haha. Um, actually I'm still having dizziness but I have time so it's okay.

I found out that Im a much more confident person since i've come here, and study in my new school. I still remember the times in Malaysia, where I dont even have the courage to ask teacher something. It's something I've learned here. Somehow the environment has changed me quite much. I feel it's a really really good thing. At least i feel less useless. haha. Erm, I think it's because of the teachers and education here, where they praise you for every tiny little thing you do. I feel that is really encouraging, well not in exceptional situations of course. It's like, when you do well, you'll get compliments, and if you dont, the teachers will advise you to try harder and there's always a chance where you can improve. compared to the edu system in malaysia where among the motivating things a teacher says in school, the common ones are "teruskan usaha anda" which means "keep it up", and "tingkatkan prestasi anda" which basically means "try harder" (and mind you, these phrases appear in almost every single student's report), the system in here is more analytic, where the teachers write comments about a student's progress once in a few months (they call it "pragress phase 1/2/3 etc.). I mean, it's not that it's not good, and i understand that the teachers have much more important things to do other than commenting on our progress in school, but it's quite crucial that the students know what they're doing well in school and what arent.

Okay. topic drifted, my apologies.

Erm, back to "confidence", I found out that I am willing to stand in front of the class and talk :D THAT'S SUCH A MASSIVE IMPROVEMENT FOR ME. and i remembered on last friday, my friends wanted to ask a teacher something, but she's got a lesson in her class and so my friend asked me to help her to ask the teacher (complicated, i know). And i actually didnt mind that :) I mean, looking back, i think i would be saying things like "WE GO TOGETHER", or "NO WAY, YOU GO" all these sort of stuff.

And a few weeks ago, we had to present to a class about Cyber Bullying. Everyone was quite reluctant to do it, cz we didnt really prepared and just planned to read from the text. My friend (SHE'S GOT STRAIGHT A* IN GCSE OMG) and I were like, shall we just do it then? and we we kind of took the lead and presented to the class. And i was quite confident :D

I think it's partly because of my Film Studies lesson. Cz every fortnight we had to "discuss" within outselves about a particular topic we've chosen to do. So it kinda trained me to speak and discuss publicly about a topic. And there's partly where my confidence comes from :D

I'm glad that i have these sort of changes, really. Nowadays i feel presenting something is not really scary and with enough preparation, i should do quite well :) And it boosts my confidence when i know i did well in it! :D

Honestly, I like the education system here. It's less hectic than in Malaysia. I know studying in Malaysia is really tough. And you've just got to do exceptionally well in order to stand out from the crowd. i was used to the position where everyone did so well compared to me, and i was just one of them who didnt work hard to strive, one of the hundreds of thousands who thought that it's pretty pointless to try, but fail, to succeed. BUT. I've woken up! Instead, i wanna be the one who CAN do well and make my parents, teachers and friends really really proud.

WATCH ME DO IT!