I cant stop thinking about the first day of school again.
I actually want to go back to becoming how I was when i first start AS year. sitting all by my own focussing on my studies. Idk why. Maybe it's because i really dont have time for social life. Or any other things. I wont admit that i dont have a life. it's just that my life revolves around studying and watching HK dramas. that's how introvert i am. proud to be. i can imagine myself studying 24/7 in school even during my free time. i think i'll enjoy it tho.
i dont wanna get too close with my friends in school, and then end up not going anywhere with them outside of school hours. it might bring a senses of "fake-ness" to them. maybe it's best to leave them as they were and keep a safe distance. maybe it's just me. maybe it's just me being afraid of not fitting in. maybe it's just me thinking that things wont turn out as i've expected.
Im nineteen next year. so old. unlike many of them who are still 16 turning 17 this year. i want to treasure every single minute i have in school.
i suddenly feel so detached with school.
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