FREEDOM!

I finally finished my AS exams. Today was my last paper- Psychology. it's alright, isnt as simple as i thought. compared to all the mock exams (real past paper in exam condition), this was more difficult. it was actually quite hard to me. idk how to explain but it was more complicated than i thought it would be. and we had 3 essay questions this paper -.- in the past mock exams, there's always been one or two. that's my problem. i tend to spend so much time on essay questions because idk how much i should really write to gain full marks.  i think my problem is, i can do quite well in mock exams but in real exam, i just... dunno, panic i guess? but oh well, i think i've done alright. what's done is done anyway! :D

Im gonna miss everything i've learned this year :( minus the stressed out part. I actually liked the revision sessions for both Law and Psychology 'cause i felt that's when my friendship with my friends grew. It's funny how we were like strangers and now we've always studied together and we're going shopping for prom this saturday YAY! Actually, i forgot how we knew each other o.o oh and my teachers are always nicer in revision sessions :P

like i said in many posts previously, it's been the best year ever (i've only been here for 2 years duh -.-)! not to mention that tmr is officially the second year im here in the UK. How fast time flies.

So yeah. Im just gonna chill all day today! i did actually. i went to town with my friends and shopped. I FINALLY BOUGHT MYSELF A PLAYSUIT! MY VERY FIRST PLAYSUIT!

it looks better than the picture but yeah. im thinking whether i should stick to my plain black dress or wear this to prom. but then im scared that i'll clash outfit with other people cz it's bought in a common shop :/ i think i'll stick to the black dress. hee.

Soooooo. im so happy i bought a playsuit :D i've always wanted a playsuit. AND IT'S ACTUALLY IN MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONNNN. wait i go find the list now.

THERE U GO. just realised it's been on my resolution list for two years, and i finally got to buy one. such a great accomplishment! i really DO feel happy. it's because i was so freaking fat in malaysia i dont even wanna look at playsuits. haha. not that im not fat now, but i can wear a blazer with it since the weather is chilly here unlike Msia :D the thing is, the playsuit is more formal. i actually liked those a bit casual ones. i hesitated and wanted to return it but nah, it's still nice :'D

oh yeah. so i've said im going shopping with my friends this Saturday, i'll shop for myself again! it feel so nice to be able to buy something you like. but i wont spend too much, i promise :) who knows i'd probably end up buying nothing when i get home. my heart aches when i spend money :( but then again, i should reward myself since exams are over! :P excuses.

btw, we're doing this debate in law since our exams are over. NOOOOOO. i HATE debates T___T talking in public freaks me out so much, let alone debating IN FRONT OF THE PRINCIPAL. do you have to do this to me T__T yeah so my teacher said we're gonna prepare for a debate whether "duress should be extended as a defence of murder" something like that. So we have to find all relevant parties to support our motion (we dont know whether we're for or against yet) like the Law Commission etc. Im so scared :( i cant talk in public man, i'll freak out and die. literally. but oh well. luckily i've had some "formal discussions" in lesson with Ms Jordan in Film Studies lessons before so i think they were some good practices. cant we just debate in class and not in public T__T this tiny part of me is regretting for choosing law now. I hope i can gain more confidence through all these. most importantly, to understand what im actually saying during the debate. oh god. Ms F said she gained more confidence through speaking in public. i hope it's the same for me. my teacher is going to divide us into two groups for proposition or opposition. OH LORD GIVE ME STRENGTH PLEASE. im planning to start researching on it beforehand so i know what it's about. my friends all did some prep work but i didnt cz i was allowed to revise for my exam ytd. oh well.

tmr they're gonna talk to us about UCAS aka applying to unis. idek when i'm applying cz im leaving the year after. Hope it's gonna be not boring (i dont expect fun anyway) tmr!

Oh yeah. ytd during assembly, the teacher said we should continue to go to our classes even if we are not continuing the subject next year. So i went to photography lesson today. THERE'S NO POINT. i went there and they were doing their work. You know what, they've already started A2 modul two weeks ago. so what's the point of me and my friends going when we are not doing it, plus we cant just jump in half way? :/ i really wanna join Ms Flora's law class :( cz at least im doing something. I dont wanna just go to school for nothing :( although it's nice to chill but you know.. :(( maybe i should ask the teacher whether im allowed to go to Ms Flora's lesson. cz she let me revised for my exam today anyway. Yeah im gonna do that! we must make a move! for a better future! AHAHA wth am i crapping.

actually you know what I SHOULD START WATCHING MY DRAMA SERIES NOW :'D TATA!