Rants.

That's why they say: never, ever, expect.

I expected school to be real fun. I expected that this year is gonna be so much more awesome than last year.

So today I went to school to sort out my timetable. At 3.15. When all my friends were there at 10.

So I went there, and I saw my teacher. He was surprised to see me there. I was surprised to see him being surprised to see me there. And I told him that i was being asked to go there at 3.15. He told me that it was the Year 12s who are supposed to go there at 3.15. I could see the following things already.

So he brought me HALFWAY to see another teacher for my timetable. And I ended up meeting the Head of Year 12 (my history teacher woots) and he told me my form. And YEAP. IM IN YEAR 12.

IM IN THE FREAKING YEAR 12 FOR THE THIRD FREAKING YEAR. Im so freaked out, really. How on earth is that possible? But anyways. It's because I'm doing one more year for 2 AS's. That's why they make me stay in Year 12. Year 13s would be applying to Unis so it's irrelevant for me. I understand that it's for my own good. But i was really upset.

I dont like meeting new young faces already. I;m so tired of seeing new younger people. Kids. Not to be offensive. But they're like 15 turning 16. Why must they keep changing the environment? Challenging my adaptability. It's exceeding the limit, nearly. And I've got to see them every single morning in form time. Luckily it's the same form tutor as the last year. She's really nice. And she loves me cz I always help her to run some errands. Haha. So that should be fine.

I was really upset this afternoon. But then I thought: It was like this as well last year. I didnt know everyone (apart from 4/5 girls). I didnt even speak in forms. So it wont really make a difference to me. So what for being upset about it? Maybe it's better, cz i can do my work during form time. I'll just feel a bit lonely, but that should be fine. I've made it through last year anyway!

I was upset because I cant be with my friends during form time when all of them are gonna be in the common room together while im in my Year 12 room. But then again, i realised that it's not form time that makes school fun. It's the lessons! I loved last year because of the lessons, especially Law. So form time wont affect much I guess :)

So I looked for the teacher who's got my timetable. Talked to her and kind of got my timetable sorted. Well, at least Geog is in there, which means I dont have to do Eng Lit yay! Although History is not there, I dont think it's a big problem cz I have to do only one Unit so I can look for the teacher and see when he's got free time so he can teach me. But they've moved my Psychology class :( I liked that class tho. But then I'm gonna be with my friends still. So it's fine. Just a lil' bit upsetting. AND MOST IMPORTANTLY THEY HAVENT CHANGED MY LAW CLASS. I WAS SO HAPPY. GLAD. RELIEVED. GRATEFUL. i'm still in the same law class :'D with my law buddy Aishah. That's enough. She's the one who sits next to me in lessons anyway. Haha. But sadly my other friend got moved to another class. she's so funny tho! I wonder if our class will still be as funny without her :( oh well. I hope Law lessons are still gonna be fun! Cz Law lessons are what makes school fun!

Honestly I didnt realise until im writing this that it was the Law lessons that made school fun.

But then again, I shall stop expecting. I dont wanna have my hopes high expecting that Law lessons will be a loooot of fun. Dont wanna drag myself down again. I was expecting too much. I'll just let it be. But I'll try to have a open heart and make sure I enjoy this school year!

That's basically it. I wonder who has the same frees with me?