Oxford.

A trip. nothing else. haha.

I cant believe that i didnt mention this yesterday when i was posting my blog about dudley zoo. I went to Oxford with my mom, sis and bro (dad was working) the day before. got ready by 1.30pm, reached there at 3.30. it was new to us and so we took more than 30mins to find a parking lot. and it's so expensive. HASSLES.

so yeah. our journey involved walking and going around the city by the sight-seeing bus. all the pictures can be viewed through my fb album. something ran through my mind when i was travelling in the city. would i wanna spend 3 years in this (pretty) hectic city? it's not as hectic as in a normal city. it's really crowded and busy. maybe im one of the kind of people who like quiet and peaceful living style. but then again, you can get almost everything there. Compared to Cambridge, it's a lot a lot busier. Well, maybe i didnt really explore Cambridge properly. My mom said we should all visit Cambridge again.

Nevertheless, Crown Court and County Court (it's in the same building. how cool!) never fail to intrigue me. no i didnt go in there HAHA but i still feel amazed!

the buildings were really really pretty. there's this old man who kept asking us questions and answering them for us. HAHA. for example, he asked "do you know where the books are?" (we're in the library) and we were like, hmm not sure. he went "it's in the underground". hahaha. it's kind of funny! but he seems so knowledgeable.

oh yeah. i wanted to say that i feel so demotivated today. it's like idk what to do with my life. too much homework (idek where to start), stuck with my laptop with a show i can watch (turned out it's pretty boring), worrying about my work experience and marshalling a judge, wondering if i'll hate school next year, FREAKING NERVOUS ABOUT MY RESULTS (EXACTLY THREE WEEKS' TIME), my laptop's microsoft office is gone (no Word, PPT, nor Excel), my right abdomen hurts, my study table is so messy (cant be bothered to organise it), and the light is so dim.

but there's this part of me telling me that: since you're so demotivated, go do your work. at least im engage with something. i wanna watch the show actually. quickly finish it, so i can concentrate on my work. excuses, i know. but im the type of person who must finish something if I've started it. weird, of course im weird. heh.

it's the 7th day of holiday and it feels like ages. It feels like it's been a month. i dont really like long holidays. we i have more homework than ever, we i procrastinate even more, we i feel extremely bored, we i get a lot lazier, we i have no where to go, and  we i gain weight. hahaha. seriously, it's only been a week! 6 more weeks to go. which means 6 more weeks to do my work. minus Tuesdays where my mom usually brings us out, that is 5 weeks. i dont think i'll be able to finish all my work ... im feel so lazy :(

i feel so lost. i wanna do my work but at the same time i dont. i should hibernate. UGH.


*edits

I JUST PERMANENTLY DELETED THE PROM PICTURE OF ME AND MY PSYCHOLOGY TEACHER BY ACCIDENT. COULD THIS DAY GET ANY WORSE.


**edits (again)
THE LIGHT BULB OF MY ROOM SUDDENLY WENT "PAAAP!" because i sort of taken it out but never put it back properly.

PLEASE DONT GET ANY WORSE.

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so.. we cannot use the lights in all the rooms now. sigh. what did i do :(