procrastination.

I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING MYSELFFFFF.

I felt so so so motivated to do my work just now! i finished watching the dramas wich are out today, and then i was like, OMG I WANNA start DOING MY WORK! and i actually felt excited! but then i saw a pile of laundry in my room. My mom left it there. I was like, i should help my mom to fold the clothes. SO I DID THAT. and then the worst thing is when i was folding the clothes, i listened to music on Youtube ... ONLY TO REALISE THAT I STILL HAVE A DOCUMENTARY TV SHOW TO WATCH. i watched till episode 8 yesterday and completely forgot about it today (idk how). SO of course i wanna continue watching. IF ONLY I DIDNT FOLD THE CLOTHES LISTEN TO MUSIC ON YOUTUBE. :((((((

there i am, telling myself that i'll start doing my work on the first day of August (which is actually not far away). Six days. I know that i will feel really guilty and bad if i spend ALL SIX DAYS watching the show. I hate myself man. WHY DID I REMEMBER THAT I HAVENT FINISHED WATCHING IT?! if i didnt remember, i've probably started my work already T_____T but then now i dont wanna start my work :((((((( but i will feel bad. but it's only the start of the holidays T_T (it feels like ages.) SHOOT RESULTS DAY. omg man. i saw my law teacher in school today (i'll tell you why i needed to go to school today in a bit) AND I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT MY RESULTS OMG. so scary nerve-wrecking spine-chilling (does this word even exist?). so yeah it's only the start of the holidays :( the fifth day haha. who knows. i might do my work later tonight (i might really actually). actually no. once i've started watching, i'll never stop.

I HATE DILEMMAS. I HATE CHOOSING. I WANNA MARRY A HUSBAND WHO WILL DECIDE EVERYTHING FOR ME (CHOICES WHICH I WILL LIKE OF COURSE).

SO. the reason i wanna type this post is:

DEAR FUTURE ASHLEIGH CHAI SEE KEE PLEASE DO NOT PROCRASTINATE ANYMORE.

T_T please slap me.

oh and i went to dudley zoo and castle today! it was a 'psychology trip' haha. only 5 of us and Mrs Rukar our psychology teacher :D i went to school at 9.40 -___- bcs my sis needed to be in school for this maths tuition thingy. SHE teaches other students. hahaha. oh well. so i was the only one there -.- with my teacher. it was pretty awkward, cz i cant really talk :/ if only i know how to talk and engage in a conversation. sigh.

Overall it was alright. OH. i finally witnessed a Macaque. You know how ppl describe females who put loads of make up especially blusher 'baboon butt'? I SAW THE BUTTS TODAY. they (the asses HAHAHA) look really ugly tbh. haha. and apparently when the female macaques get attracted by the males, their asses will turn REDDER. FUYOH. im amazed. haha.

oh then there's this little boy called "reece" (not sure about the spelling) who was holding a cheap (like toy, but usable) camera and kept snapping pics of me. I WAS SO SCARED. i tried to turn my back towards him but then he shoved my shoulders and made me face him again. i was like .. okay i'll play with my phone. HAHA. i should've acted cool and smile and let him take a picture of me. i bet he'll go away after that. oh well. he's about 6/7 yo i think.

So yeah. Oh and there's a chair lift (like a cable car, without the 'cube', just chairs) to bring us up the mini hill. It was quite fun! but a bit dangerous and scary. that's like my favourite part of the trip. hahaha. we went to the dudley castle and went up to the highest floor. when we were coming down the stairs (you know those olden days staircases where you turn round and round and round) i hurt my knees (the joints above). HURT SO MUCH :( i was nearly limping, my legs were kinda wobbly. i was so scared that i'll roll down the stairs. haha. but seriously. it hurts so bad i dont even know why.I COULD BARELY WALK.

then we went home at 2. my friends wanted to watch Despicable Me 2 but i went home instead. i was a good day actually :)